Point of Recognition
Hello again,
You are now warned that this is going to be therapeutic release time for me this week, but it wouldn't surprise me if some of you could relate.
I began this blog several years ago because I needed something happy. I enjoyed designing, creating and sewing, but I had no consistent accountability. Because of this I would only complete projects that had deadlines. These deadlines were achieved but not to the standards that I wanted. Next thing I would be in complete mental exhaustion that would take months to wear off before I could consider the next project. Long and short of it was that it would turn into a vicious cycle. So I created accountability with this blog, and it was the best thing that I could have done.
Right before I went to the Renaissance Fair this year I came to a point of recognition, that it is well past time for me to make changes in my life. I have known what I needed to do for a long while now, but was too much a coward to actually do anything about them. To me this time of reorganizing, reassessing and figuring out my goals and game plans for this upcoming year, goes beyond this realm of sewing. This also delves into my mind, body and soul.
Those who miraculously kept up with me during 2016 knew that it was a difficult year for me and my projects. When I went to visit my friend Kesha for celebrating the 2017 the way we do, I mentioned to her how consistently tired I was with very little energy for about the past 2 years. Upon hearing this, Kesha told me that her father who had gone through cancer felt this way and informed his doctor about it. His doctor told him that he had a slight case of depression. After hearing this, I told this story and how I've been feeling to my doctor the first time that I saw her, which was of course going in for my bronchitis. The consensus, is that around the time I was diagnosed with Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, I came down with a mild case of depression. My weight gain that I have not been happy about is a possible side effect of this condition does nothing to help matters either. Another doctor's note is that when I went in for my physical this year, the family history of High Cholesterol has also hit me.
Now here is the point of recognition that I mentioned above...
I am beginning to break free from my cage and make progress.
For one thing, I am working through Lindsey Smith's Junk Foods and Junk Moods: Stop Craving and Start Living! I picked it up from the 2015 Fashion Meets Music Festival, where she had a stall and hosted the Mod Cloth Body Love Fashion Show. I knew back then that I needed this book, but again until recently I have been too much of a coward to actually work my way through it.
All of the prepping and game planning for next years projects is also helping.
Colette is an advocate of "Think before you shop." If you are going to put money, time and effort into something make sure that it is 100% you, and not caught up in a moment. Whether or not you are a seamstress, there are tips that I recommend everyone to use when purchasing "clothing."
You are now warned that this is going to be therapeutic release time for me this week, but it wouldn't surprise me if some of you could relate.
I began this blog several years ago because I needed something happy. I enjoyed designing, creating and sewing, but I had no consistent accountability. Because of this I would only complete projects that had deadlines. These deadlines were achieved but not to the standards that I wanted. Next thing I would be in complete mental exhaustion that would take months to wear off before I could consider the next project. Long and short of it was that it would turn into a vicious cycle. So I created accountability with this blog, and it was the best thing that I could have done.
Right before I went to the Renaissance Fair this year I came to a point of recognition, that it is well past time for me to make changes in my life. I have known what I needed to do for a long while now, but was too much a coward to actually do anything about them. To me this time of reorganizing, reassessing and figuring out my goals and game plans for this upcoming year, goes beyond this realm of sewing. This also delves into my mind, body and soul.
Those who miraculously kept up with me during 2016 knew that it was a difficult year for me and my projects. When I went to visit my friend Kesha for celebrating the 2017 the way we do, I mentioned to her how consistently tired I was with very little energy for about the past 2 years. Upon hearing this, Kesha told me that her father who had gone through cancer felt this way and informed his doctor about it. His doctor told him that he had a slight case of depression. After hearing this, I told this story and how I've been feeling to my doctor the first time that I saw her, which was of course going in for my bronchitis. The consensus, is that around the time I was diagnosed with Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, I came down with a mild case of depression. My weight gain that I have not been happy about is a possible side effect of this condition does nothing to help matters either. Another doctor's note is that when I went in for my physical this year, the family history of High Cholesterol has also hit me.
Now here is the point of recognition that I mentioned above...
- I deserve to take care of myself.
- Getting by in life is not good enough.
- I deserve to laugh and smile way more than I do now.
- I have to reconnect with who I have always been inside my daydreams.
- I need to free myself from my cage and be completely myself. Completely Karana.
I am beginning to break free from my cage and make progress.
For one thing, I am working through Lindsey Smith's Junk Foods and Junk Moods: Stop Craving and Start Living! I picked it up from the 2015 Fashion Meets Music Festival, where she had a stall and hosted the Mod Cloth Body Love Fashion Show. I knew back then that I needed this book, but again until recently I have been too much of a coward to actually work my way through it.
All of the prepping and game planning for next years projects is also helping.
Colette is an advocate of "Think before you shop." If you are going to put money, time and effort into something make sure that it is 100% you, and not caught up in a moment. Whether or not you are a seamstress, there are tips that I recommend everyone to use when purchasing "clothing."
- Will I feel good in it?
- Will I feel comfortable?
- What will I wear with it?
- Does it make me HAPPY?
- What makes me feel uncomfortable and why?
These are questions posed in the Planning Chapter of the Colette Sewing Handbook. Also through their blog they have "Wardrobe Architect" that I also recommend. It delves into what is your style and why. I actually just completed Weeks 1 and 2. I couldn't get my core style words down to 3 to describe who I really am, so I kept them at 5.
Who I truly am is a...
Stand-out, Eclectic, Creative, Exploring Daydreamer.
I created a Pinterest Board for it, and made it 1 of my opening internet pages so that I will never forget. A lot of this information will be going into my Colette Sewing Planner for next year.
I am also using clothing to change my mindset. I was amazed at how ecstatic I was with Peacock Garden, it was 100 % me. I was smiling and happy. Since then I have been trying to wear things that are me and ignite my inner glow where I can seize the day. I have been naming my mood styles Moxy Rocker, Boho Bombshell, Romantic Rose to avoid going into a dreary rut. I think that it is helping. As I am writing all of this up it is Sunday and there has been nothing but rain where I am. When looking at my closet trying to figure out what to wear today, I decided to go Boho Bombshell. That name and mindset helped keep me in a "Seize the Day" mood all day long, which is what I am trying for. As long as I can "Seize the Day," I know that I am making an effort to change my life for the better.
For any of you who are experiencing the same thing or something similar, my heart goes out to you and I hope that you find the courage to achieve what you need.
Until next week...
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